“Come to Me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.” Matt. 11:28-30
One day last summer I was in a bad mood, fighting with my husband. I felt irritable and was having trouble connecting to my God. When I had my prayer time that afternoon, God showed me that I was trying to be perfect. So I told Him, “You know I’m not perfect, and I’m sorry for being cranky with Paul.” Then I felt better. I snuggled under the covers in my bed (the AC is cold in there in the afternoon), snuggled in God’s arms. I praised Him and thanked Him for saving me, choosing me, creating me to want Him. I told Him despite how tired, frustrated, and hard life is sometimes, I wouldn’t trade life with Him for anything. There is no place I’d rather be than with Him. He has the keys to life. He is the Creator, He is what we need to live and be happy. Now that I’ve tasted Him, I could not be without Him. It would be unbearable. I cannot go back. It would be my death.
So then I dozed off in His arms, and He surrounded me in such peace and His Presence. I don’t know what He does to me while I sleep in His arms. When I wake up, I feel so much better and feel so close to Him. I think when I’m conscious, I’m my own enemy. I overanalyze and anticipate, I have expectations and demands, then disappointments, and all this keeps me away from God. He can’t bless me when I am so anxious. But when I sleep, He can do what He wants. He can change me, fill me with Himself, heal me, give me spiritual rest, surround me in His peace. I love You, Jesus. <3